When your choice isn't your choice.

Choice - an act of selecting or making a decision when faced with two or more possibilities.

The irony of realizing the choice you made is not what you intended to be. Having secured an internship in a think tank, I realized should I fail to perform satisfactorily, my career in a particular sector is pretty much done for. I do enjoy the occasional research work I did for some of my projects and report writing, but in a formal setting where your bread and butter hinges on it, it seems like a no-no.

Till this end, I wonder what sort of trouble I am getting myself into.

Seeing the change in oneself.

Sometimes, it takes someone else to let you see the change in yourself.

Academic achievement had never been my interest when I was in primary and secondary schools. It took some nagging for me to start on my revision and I often ended up sleeping. I am what most people would say, a late bloomer, when I went on to polytechnic after completing my GCE O's level. But, I digress.

Dad stood at my door one evening and said to me, "Don't over-stress yourself, alright?" On one hand it was heartwarming from my dad's concern, on the other, I am bemused. Bemused over the disinterest in studies I had shown in my younger days and the change I underwent so subtly.